Sunday morning and really, I should be at Church but I am not.
Soon I will be ready to go back.
I have learnt ; never date a Pastor's son, especially if they are younger. Infact younger men altogether ...never.

Love seems to be everywhere right now mind, I have never been in love, I feel like I am waiting for it sometimes to kick start the rest of my life...
I just pray and trust the Lord has something in plan for me. I know he has. I mean look at

Jeremiah 29:11

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I need to stop pushing and being impatient I suppose.

There are lots of things I need to do mind in all reality. All in God's time, but also I need to be proactive at the same time.

So I have not wrote in ages. Yet again. I am sorry. What is happening? Well I always seem to be busy with family and friends which is very good for me. I have however whittled away too much money on pretty things, which is not good for me.
My health is fine, work is dull. The children are wonderful as ever though , thank goodness.

I am finding so many people inspiring recently.





I find my Niece inspiring, I feel so much love in my heart for her, it just grows and grows.
She is so beautiful. With big blue eyes and soft peachy skin. When I visited Newcastle, we did so much with her, from trips to the museum ..to dance and swimming classes, to Fish and Chips by the seaside, to paddling in the sea, napping together, watching "In The Night Garden" all tucked up in bed with the Kitties.
Motherhood is amazing. There is nothing more feminine.

I find so many Christian Women inspiring. But not the clones. There is as ever a stereotypical persona of the average Charasmatic Church Christian female. Not everyone is like this though may I add.

God loves diversity. We are created by God to be ourselves, God gave us talents and interests and passsions he gave us individuality. God is that great.
My sister and I had a talk about this last night. I am learning recently, my answers are not from man but from God.

Everything I have learnt this year, I have taken in well, with all the health issues, work issues, life issues. I have kept happy because I know that everything is working to teach me, my faith has grown and whilst some periods (like recently) I feel my relationship with God is going through a more "quieter" phase, it gives room for mind, for thought, for searching deeper.

I think this quote applies, I hope it helps anyone who stumbles across this Blog too...

“God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. The way we learn those lessons is not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings underlying them.” Stanley Lindquist.


I shall do a blog later, to recap my summer. It has consisted of so many beautiful things that I do not want to forget and that I want to share...

Surrender. What a beautiful word. What a beautiful life.

I bought the skirt the other week. Birthday skirt? Oui, Oui? I am too in love with pretty things. My head hurts and corruption seems to be everywhere. Praying for strength admist it all.

It is so hot and I laying here with my hair all flaring out from my head. All my ringlets are combed out and I look like a lion. A giant cloud of fluff.

I am so tanned right now. Too hot to sleep. I have been busy, this weekend I went to a festival, rode on a canal boat and lay on a picnic blanket. I keep spending too much money. On too many pretty things. Meals out, days out. Silly things. I need to learn to save.

Life has been very busy and full.

Heart ache, acceptance, moving on, weddings, too much wine, not enough sleep, girly nights, pubs, lakes, hospitals, kisses, work, happiness, friendship, flowers, sisters, parents, college, gardening, dancing, dresses, ice creams, candy floss, blankets & movies, learning.

I feel completely settled in myself. I am completely happy with everything about me (other than my inability to save money!)I trust my life is in God's hands. I just pray for clarity.

I am listening to Bob Marley and The Wailers. It is raining outside and I washed my pink fluffy dressing gown yesterday. It smells so fresh and lovely.

I should be at Church but I felt sort of reluctant to go this morning.

Whenever I listen to No Woman No Cry. I always imagine singing it to my future baby girls. "Little Darlin' Don't Shed No Tears!" Aw.

Last night Abigail and I were talking about our future families. We have been doing this since we were about fifteen. Honestly.
Abigail's babies will have silky dark hair and pouty lips. Mine will have long fluffy curls and chubby cheeks. Mine will wear dungarees and wellington boots all the time and I think Abigail's will wear fancy dresses and velvet. Abigail will marry Kassem and I will end up marrying a sensible older man. He'll probably wear tweed a lot. And silly shoes.

Work has been nice recently. We made cakes the other day. I let the kids decorate them whilst eating them. There were hundreds and thousands everywhere. Pink butter icing around mouths and on cheeks. Cherries on the top. Covered in slobber. I love those children.

I am back in hospital tomorrow. Another neurology appointment. In Northampton. I really hope they do not have to shave any of my hair.

Psalm 139:14 ESV
"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

Pictures are of: Cassie or rather Hannah Murray.
One very cold, icy but beautiful England.
My favourite Bear and I .

"I found all that I want, all that I longed for in You
Wasted time, is when I'm far from Your truth
I've found all that I want, all that I long for in You"


- Switchfoot - Spirit.

Amen!

xx